i approached that piece of white paper, covered with a plastic sheet, laying so steadily on that grey table.
i sat down, stare hard at it.

"Mr long, the team coach......"

oh my goodness! am i that lucky?! today's theme is on sports?! the conversation is surely related to this! and i flipped to the back for the picture, it's something on a soccer competition. OH MY GOODNESS! this is so damn lucky! i was that relieved because i encountered something weird this morning when mrs raj gave us past year oral papers to practice. something like " 'i love work. i can spend hours looking at people doing it.' what's your view on this statement? " like HUH?!

okay, so after 10mins, i went in.

they looked alright, not bad, not very fierce-looking and hmm yea i didn't gave much thought after that.

sat down and the passage was lllooonnggg. i still managed to breathe slowly, calm myself down, be as expressive as possible, careful not to misread any words, and pronounced those "th", though i stumbled on a word or two.

the picture was so-so, and then it was the conversation.

yes! as i expected, "what competition have you took part in before?".
i began relating to them the four years in basketball. i went on and on and on, okay not that long. but the talk was truthful and from the bottom of my heart. why i'd said that? i chocked upon my words and those emotions came running into me but i still managed to continue on.
i knew i was talking louder as i got more sucked into the conversation and the eye-contact was well, not too bad eh.

everyone would say this, i know, i don't care and i still want to say it here. "given another chance, i would have done much better!" yes, really cause i could give her more of my reflections on the second conversation topic, "is the society emphasizing too much on being the best?", cause on my way home, i found out that i've got a whole truckload more to say. but, i should already be contented and i hope i did not do too badly.

as the door shut behind me, i gave a sigh of relief and then

tears rolled down my cheeks as i thought of those days and the future.


i miss you girls, alot.